Happiness to Failure

Everyone deserves happiness. This is all I heard growing up. Finding happiness is where people go wrong. You think you find the one then you realize it was all a lie. I was with a guy for a year. We were so happy I thought. We were young an in love. Till awhile ago. He told me he was going to kill himself three times now. Because of me. For all of you out there that isn't love... I told my best guy friend and he told me to tell him parents. He needed help and I already new this. But I lost all contact with him. He blocked me on everything because he thought I didn't care if he killed himself. I thought I should have no one. Till recently. I found this amazing guy that's always there for me and talking to him about my problems helps a lot. But in the back of my mind, I'm scared to get close to anyone else ever again. That they will turn out the same. Trusting people is a hard thing for me. And it could be for you to, I don't know. But not giving up is how you get though it. Everyone does deserve happiness. It might not be on your door step in an hour but then it might. But it all happens when you least expect it. So live your life. Smile. Laugh. And forget.